Friday, October 26, 2012

Rant about types

Types.  Apparently women have types of men that they like.  Apparently men do too.  Do I have a type of woman that I like - sort of  - I like women to me female.  I mean really, how can there be a type of person that you are attracted to?  I find something attractive in just about every person I meet.  I just don't understand it.
See, the problem is that I am apparently not the type of man that women think they want.  I am not tall, I am not rugged, I am not an alpha mail type.  No, I am only 5' 6" tall.  I am in decent shape.  I don't look any where near my age.  But the real problem is that I am a nice guy.  I am sweet, caring, affectionate and supportive.  Most women figure this out and they assume I am some sort of push over or something - I don't know what they think.  The fact is that I am as stubborn a person as you will ever meet.  I am not a push over by any standard.  The fact is that my priorities are different from pretty much everyone I know.  My number one priority, what makes me happiest, is to make other people happy.  I love doing it.  Because of that I am often willing to do whatever people want to do. I guess that makes me look bad in too many peoples eyes.  How fucked up is that?
Most of all I love making my wife happy.  That is what matters to me more than anything else.  Trust me when I tell you, that is a full time job.  I don't say that as a criticism, just a fact.  She is a very needy person and I am a very giving person.  That makes us well suited for each other.  I would likely drive anyone else nuts - smother them is the expression I believe. 
What's my point? 
Why the fuck would someone have a type?  Why would they define some specific set of parameters that a person must fall into in order to be interesting or attractive to them?  That is so limiting and so blinding.  When you find someone with the qualities you think you want you tend not to notice the negative qualities that come along with them - you are blinded to them.

Like the title says, this is just a rant - this is just me whining and bitching.
Thanks for listening.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


That is what I really like.
It isn't the sex I want.  I just want to touch.
Maybe my hands are unusually sensitive.  When I am concentrating on what I am doing, when I am really focused on her, I can feel the touching, almost a reflection.
If I am caressing her back, I can feel it on my own back.  It is almost like a ghost touch, a guide, telling me where and how to slide my hands.
I know the guide is true from the moaning response she always gives me.

That is what I want.
Her pleasure.
I love giving pleasure.
There is nothing so beautiful; nothing so satisfying as giving a woman an orgasm.
I love it.

A woman's back. 
There is nothing so sexy as a woman's back.
I did not choose the example above by accident.
I love caressing a woman's back.
Most often I will start withe her hair, playing with her hair a bit.
Then her neck.  The neck is so beautifully sensitive; particularly behind the ears.
I am most sensitive to the upper back and shoulders.
My guide lets me know what to do. 
The whole back is so smooth.
That shape
that smooth lone from the neck, the flair of the hips, all the way down to a shapely ass.
That shape is so feminine
That shape is Woman and it reeves my desire unlike any other.

When I go to a strip club near by
I get a lap dance. 
This club is liberal and allows plenty of caressing.
There are two things I love the most.
First, is when she sits on my lap, facing away from me.
I love to slide my hands up her silky smooth back, up to her shoulders,
Pull her back into me.
Run my hands back down her back,
Hold onto her hips as I grind up into her rolling hips.

I also like it when she sits in my lap facing me.
I wrap my arms around her
Lean my face into her neck and jaw
Caress her back, holding her close to me.

I love touching women's backs.

Sometimes I fall into the same trap as so many people and see touching as taint amount to/same as sex. 
It isn't.
And if it is?  So what.
A promise of fidelity is made out of fear.
Fear that one person will leave the other.
If that is true, sex is not the issue.
Still, I try to respect this since so many people see it that way.
For me, touching is good.
Friends that feel close to and attracted to one another should touch.
The should caress, kiss and perhaps bring each other off.
They don't have to fuck
They don't even have to suck
It is an expression of affection.
It is a mutual show of love and friendship.

Still, most people don't see it that way.

Oh Well.